Will I?

Jesus,

Will I get to raise Bryson in heaven? Will I get to see his first smile? Hear his first laugh? See the gleam in his eye from the reflection of Christmas lights? Will I get to rock him to sleep? Lay on the clouds and snuggle with him? Stay up for hours just watching him sleep. Will he tell me all about you? Will I get to hear him say "Mommy"? Will I get to rub his sweet soft feet? Will I get to see him in nothing but a diaper?

There are so many things I missed out on. I did get to hear his first, and only, cry. I did get to hold him while he still had breath in his body. I did get to feel his finger  hand hold onto my finger. I did get to tell him that I love him. I did get to sing to him. For those times Jesus, I thank you!! Please tell my sweet baby boy that I love him. Please let me have all these precious moments, and so many more, with him. I miss him so much!

I love you,
Your daughter and Bryson's Mommy

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